I'll be the rose by your grave.

2006-02-01T07:41:00.000-08:00

officially moved to:

http://whatpatterns.livejournal.com/

i am dying of the confiment of this skin layout. I wan something spacious and neat. I am a tidy freak. Most importantly.. something that allows me to read back my early entries easily.

I've got what i want.

2006-01-31T08:45:00.000-08:00

I had a sudden urge to throw out everything(almost) in my closet and make more space for my 'future' shopping spree. Very sad to say, I am a shopping whore.

And please! more ballet flats please! In green, red, gold, navy blue and black. I want them all. GIVE THEM TO ME!!!!

i am so moving out of this stupid blog.

2006-01-28T17:26:00.000-08:00

I love hunting for cheap bargains.
I am moving out of blogspot.
I feel damn cold right now.
I shit-ed about 20mins ago.
I enjoy reading random blogs.
I can't wait to wear my new dress.
I love my new clothes.
I have a new quilted bag.
I am going to die of final projects.
I feel damn fucking random right now.

BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

2006-01-22T08:22:00.000-08:00

I like the feeling when you have a crush on someone. Cause you go hysterical everytime your friend's eyes start to drift away from yours and look behind you.
I like the feeling when your heart beats so fast and you feel the blood rushing and gushing and wash your ears and cheeks red.

Most of all, I like seeing him.

AHHhhhhHhhhhhHhh.

psst! I hope the backstage's video for the fashion show won't have any moments of me acting all stupid and gushing 'OHMYGAWD HE IS OUTSIDE!'

2006-01-16T07:55:00.000-08:00

I should have known it all along. How could it be possible for such a perfect ending? I should have known it. They lure you, capture your attention and the next minute they break it all apart. WHY!!

2 more episodes to go!

till then, i have totally no faith in such matters.

2006-01-15T07:41:00.000-08:00

Right. I locked myself in the room to watch the vcds that I bought. And I managed to laugh myself silly and cry my eyes out when things got a little too much for myself to handle. I cried as though I was the leading actress and I realised that I cried more than the leading actress. That's very shameful on my part.

damn. i feel so satisfied. emtionally satisfied. Finally... the first damned good cry of jan. I should hold such an event for myself every month.

woooo. i am so looking forward to my next good cry.

2006-01-14T08:55:00.000-08:00

So we drift in and out of reality and we have our usual dose of day dreaming. But it is only late in the night, when you are tossing and turning in bed, then only you start to reflect on the real feeling that you have been hiding from everyone?

yeap. that's it.

2006-01-06T01:10:00.000-08:00

So, I just did that stupid 3 rounds to HELP/ACCOMPANY/WHATEVER Dr William Tan for his attempt to break the world record over at TP.

And no one said that U CANNOT WALK between your 3 rounds. I remember reading a flyer that says "You can walk, run or jog....." SO WHAT? I did my 2 rounds and you are not gonna give me a stupid fking ice-cream stick to mark the FACT that I DID COMPLETE my 2 rounds. And that fking dumb guy who was giving out the stick was too afraid to comment too much cause the orgainser was there. He was like stammering 'err... dun ask me i am not the organiser. *point to that gym-instructer-look-alike*'

SO WHAT? If I cannot continuously run for 3 rounds and u are gonna make me do it again and again and again and you are gonna hold me back until I miss my submission at 5pm which will pull down my entire grad and entire GPA? Or do you just want to me continue running until i die? Mind you, I haven't had anything to eat even until now and I slept at 4am last night cause I am rushing for my submission. I am DOING YOU A SERVICE. THAT'S IT. You don't like it or you think that I don't qualify, then so be it. I am not gonna do u any more service by running more. And it's not as if i slow walked my whole of the 3 rounds. I jog, run and did brisk walking okay.

HELLO? I AM LIKE DOING YOU A FAVOUR. You don't treat people who do your favour like some pile of shit MIND YOU. I am utterly PISSED at this whole stupid I-WANNA-BREAK-THE-WORLD-RECORD SHIT. And hello? I asked your helpers (which they should be properly briefed by ORGANISER) and they said 'go and get your stick.. by right if u finish your 1 round they should give u a stick.' So i ask if there was any rules and regulation for this event and they replied 'actually... i dun think there are any cause you are just supposed to finish ur rounds and that's it.'

HAH! IN YOUR FACE. You wanna get helpers, you brief them properly. U want me to help you, you treat me better. Just because you (they claim that he was the organiser) look like some SUPER BUFFED GYM INSTRUCTER and I would too afraid to make any noise and continue to run like some hamster being toyed by their owner.

YES. I like to make a big fuss out of this. SO? Kick me out of ur programme lah. It's not as if I so wanna take part in ur programme and break the world record together with the whole of TP. Hi, I am not friendly and neither am I too helpful. So the next time you wanna do another event like this, AUTOMATICALLY CANCEL MY NAME OUT OF YOUR LIST. Yes, I am like that. Take it or leave it.

2006-01-02T05:10:00.000-08:00

Your view on yourself: You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education: Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success: You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of: You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

I give this quiz an 8/10. It's quite accurate in some ways. Go figure it out yourself.

2006-01-01T04:41:00.000-08:00

~~Whoever acted like a jerk in 05 will have a bad year in 06. I remember it's called karma.~~ I am gonna be a nice person.

And I am greatful for friends like my baobeis - wen, sjia, ting & xiaowei, elv, jiaxin, sistar, XUELING (my clubbing kah kee) and also Joy, Charis, Saniyah aka Baboon and HongYing and Winnie and not to forget Lirong!!! And to Jo (fun with fashion show!!!) and Weiling (just in case they read my blog. WHAHWAHW KIDDING)

And I am even more greatful for new found friends like Vanessa, Rebekah and erm... I dun have alot of new friends. ya.

:)

05 wasn't particularly a good year. Cause I lost the granny (ah mah) that i love so dearly and everytime i think about her i just wanna cry.

Now with only 1 grandma left (popo) it made me wanna love her more. =\ I am having guilty pangs for not visiting her today. But I gave her a big huge and i kissed her last week before i left. It I made her smile!!!!!

I LOVE YOU ALL SILLY. MUACKS. MOST IMPORTANTLY, I LOVE MUMMY, DADDY AND MY FATTY BOMBOM BROTHER!

2005-12-23T06:21:00.000-08:00

Hmm... I smell Christmas.

WOOOOOOOO! Next wk wld be my 1 week break. But still so much stuff to do!!
Would be dropping by Chinatown tml to grab some DIY stuff... YES! Finally!!! I can see my vintage belt and all the stuff that I wanna get! WEEEEEE.

And this weds, will be clubbing over at Zouk with winnie, vanessa, hongying and blah blah HOPEFULLY WITH LIRONG. I miss clubbing with her can!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS.

2005-12-21T08:52:00.000-08:00

I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin here?
I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh

don't we all feel the same? Isn't creep (by radiohead) tailored made for all of us. Aren't you a creep? Well, I sure am. =\

2005-12-19T08:57:00.000-08:00

Quoted from MTV's I want A Famous Face....

'I can't call you titties no more'

WHAWHHAWHAHWHAWHHAWHAHWHAHWHAHWHAW.

2005-12-18T08:24:00.000-08:00

Congrats! My 18th time celebrating christmas alone. Shall continue to break record next year.

Ladies! Where should we go? Since it's gonna be a longgggggggggg weekend.

2005-12-15T06:41:00.000-08:00

Fucking stupid migraine.

=\

2005-12-14T08:25:00.000-08:00

chaocheebye. stop your philosophy and your weird believes. You know what? I believe you should smear some shit on your face and then lick them off. Hello? I am not an animal that you are training so you don't watch us. fucker.

on the lighter side of life... I LOVE PHOTO SHOOT IN THE STUDIO WITH MY GROUP!!!

2005-12-13T07:50:00.000-08:00

So, as I was trying on some cropped pants over at Zara today... i peeped at myself in the mirror. And I saw my sad wobbly thighs smiling weakly back at me.

AHHHHHHHHH. Someone put me under the scapel!!!!

2005-12-12T06:52:00.000-08:00

Before you comment on other's outfit, comment on your own stuff.

So what if I turned up in school with a freaking hair band and a stupid black berms with a teeshirt. At least I don't look sloppy. But you..... *snigger* you looked like you had a hard time trying to bring all the labels that you have together.

i cld have done if effortlessly. tough luck!

And can u tell me what's wrong with those ice-skating disney shit? They had 1 at hougang mall with a space no larger than a computer lab in tp's business school and their cast was.....

HORRIBLE.

The prince looked like taufik batisah with loads of eyeliner and the only difference is that the prince is an ang moh. And Cinderella looked like a porn star or some webcam hottie with fake eyelash that is sooooo long, i was surprised it missed the celling of hougang mall by 10 freaking cm. And fairy godmother who was supposed to be all stumpy and old turned out to be paris hilton look-a-like. Pink frock, heavy make-up and worst... BLONDE WIG.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! FASHION FAUX PAS ALERT. I wished I had a siren and that I cld ring it almost immediately and dial for the nearest fashion-police station.

These days, people just piss me off like that *snap fingers*. Watch out.

2005-12-05T08:25:00.000-08:00

WHY ARE YOU SO GODDAMNED STUPID. Can u please STOP STOP STOP calling me! You've managed to get onto my last nerve and lucky you, my LAST NERVE SNAPPED. You stupid bitch. God/your mum didn give u a brain for nothing.

PEOPLE, for the holychristsake....before u ask every stupid question that you have in mind, you might prolly wanna THINK and SEARCH for your OWN ANSWERS before u ask someone else the question. I think it's just fking rude if u just wanna keep asking questions and make people think while u relax and jot down more questions to ask others.

When people answer 1 of your questions, they aren't really prepared for the next cause they've also got a fking load of shit to complete. And your are just depriving others of their own work time and you make them waste even more time because they gotta rant in their blog about you.

STOP IT. I AM NOT YOUR BestFriendsForever (aka BBF in the Paris Hilton style) SO STOP IT STOP IT!

2005-11-30T08:06:00.000-08:00

I emailed a fashion photographer called Emma Summerton and she replied me. OHMYGAWD. She's damn freaking nice okay. Cause most of the time, I thought that 'famous' people like her wouldn't give a hoot about my stupid school assignment but SHE GAVE ME A HOOT. In fact, She gave me a HOOT HOOT HOOOT.

I SO LOVE HER WORK. *hints* Her work can be seen in Nylon regularly.

Can't wait to know more about her.......

2005-11-26T10:35:00.000-08:00

Chaocheebye. Stop all your stupid pretentious act can? 1 called at 5 mins ago and another called 5 mins later. If you just wanna talk big then don't want to carry out whatever you said. Please, I feel ashamed for you and your family. If I'm your mum, I would ~~write in to the papers~~ broadcast it onto national TV and tell the whole fucking world that you're no longer my stupid stupid STUPID PRETENTIOUS DAUGHTER.

You should seriously go eat some shit and then rub them over your face so that no one would be able to recognise you plus no one would wanna go near you. Stupid pile of shit.

AHHHHHHH. GO AND DIE LAH!

2005-11-26T00:40:00.000-08:00

Like what Charis would say, 'It's okay lah'.

So, whoever you are, STOP YOUR ACTS CAN? ____ & ______ is fking irritating. Stop the pretentious act. Stop the label whoring. Stop pretending that whatever you do is alright because it's not. Stop your 'huh...really meh' face. And stop your bootlicking shit in front of _______.

Stop your acts!! It's so frustrating. I don't even know who you are. Maybe you are a man cause u've hidden ur identity so well. And you know what? One day, you are gonna regret your stupid stupid stupid lies and you are gonna be the butt/asshole of the joke. And you are gonna be damn ma-lu and u wished u hadn't wasted your life away by telling lies and telling more lies to cover ur lies.

Most importantly, if you think the above descriptions fit you, fill in the blank with your own name. :)

2005-11-22T22:30:00.000-08:00

And so... he asked if I like older man because I am after their money. He wants to know why some girls can do anything for money. He wants to understand my fetish for man with age. He wants to know about the money factor. He wants to know why some girls make themselves so cheap.

My answers: Firstly, I like my man with age because he is SENSIBLE and he wldn't not ask me for answer but search for his own.

Secondly, everyone is materialistic. I think you are just being sexist by saying that girls cheapen themselves by dating fat,ugly but rich old man. Because you have forgotten that GIGGLO exists!

Thirdly, I like my man with age because guys your age simply disgust me.

Last but not least, I have my own money. If it's not enough, my parents have money and they can support me until I find a job. AND IF U WANNA KNOW WHY THOSE GIRLS DECIDE TO CHEAPEN THEMSELVES THEN PLEASE GO AND ASK THEM AND NOT ME.

I've proved my point. Guys your age really irritates me.

2005-11-18T00:54:00.000-08:00

you are very sensitive.

you bet i am.

2005-11-16T00:21:00.000-08:00

i DREAD all weds.

~~helphelphelphelphelphelphelp~~

i doubt any of u can save me.

2005-11-10T22:55:00.000-08:00

some people clad in *any well-known* label often think that they are the coolest lot. They think that they are the original lot and that no one will have the ability to win them since they often have that certain 'limited edition' pieces which many people don't. Yes. Then, they think 'wah. ltd edt. i must wear and show off. den ppl know i've got the limited edt top/shoes/jeans/bra/panties/boxers. and people must drop their jaws before i continue planting footprints of my *ltd edt dunk name*'

And because they think that they are original, no one else should copy whatever they do. Cause once someone else does something that they are doing/already did or what they are going to do... that poor thingy innocent ass would be labelled as COPYCAT. So you know what people? We should stop whatever that we are doing and die. Cause they breathe, they eat, they speak, they shit, they urine, they bleed, they get genital warts (I WISHED THEY DID!) and blah blah blah... the fking list goes on la.

HAHA. :)

They think that they are original? When there are like 149 other people in singapore wearing the same stuff too? *for example if it's ltd to 150 pieces only. I think I will laugh my ass off la... if someone tells me that. There's no much a biggie getting ltd edt stuff nowadays. You got the money, you'll get the stuff.

Moral of the story : Having something that already exist, doesn't make you original. Having D- for your blood type... now that IS original.

2005-11-09T21:39:00.000-08:00

This is the very first time that I've felt such tension arising in class. The air was cold, everyone starring at each other thinking in mind 'HMMMM....'

Is it supposed to be like CONSTRUCTIVE criticism or just your usual yadda yadda yadda yadda *BITCH*. Bitching is no fun when strangers are to sit in a circle and bitch about strangers. It's more fun if like a group of ppl agree with what they say

I don't want to talk about that.

I had a very bad day in class and my ears almost went deaf with all the SILENCE that is going on. YES. I quote Anngee [Silence is deafening]. And I had a hard time understanding him.

He is too ~~chim~~ artsy.

2005-11-07T19:11:00.000-08:00

:(

i am soooo upset now. i wanna cry.

my request for changing my timetable have not be approved because they claim that they dun entertain such requests.

THEN WHAT FOR U HAVE THE OTHERS COLOUM?

-_-'''''''''

CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHY DO I HAVE A 4 HOUR BREAK ON WEDS.
CAN U TELL ME WHAT AM I GOING TO DO FROM 10am - 3pm?

CAN U TELL ME.

-_-''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''

*SIGH*

2005-11-05T00:18:00.000-08:00

I am currently thinking of new year resolution. And one popped into my mind.

STOP(not possible!) MY ONLINE SHOPPING HABIT.

Currently selling my stuff online and I REALLY CANNOT STAND THIS GIRL ANYMORE. SHE GETS ME DAMN PISSED. I HATE PEOPLE WHO TAKE 100000 YEARS TO SEND U AN EMAIL AND ALL SHE STATES IN THERE IS 1 SCENTENCE.

If not for the fact that I'm concerned if she would give me a negative feedback and make me sound like a bad seller... i wldn't have call a hoot and call off the deal since another girl (who seems alot wiser) is interested in the bag.

PLUS, I DON'T DO MEET UPS. JUST BECAUSE SHE SAID SHE CLD MEET ME IN SCHOOL. SO I AGREED. FKING HELL. SO MANY QUESTIONS. BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

2005-11-01T00:15:00.000-08:00

Happy New Month. School's reopening soon. Gotta snarl at that bitch. BAHHH.

Went Chinatown with mummy. DimSum for lunch and shopped. MYGAWD LA. I was so disgusted by a bunch of JC girls over at erms... golden dragon. I wanted to die so badly when I heard one gushes 'OHMYGAWD. U SERIOUS? U MEAN THIS LONG METAL THING IS TO HOOK DANGLIES? *yadda yadda yadda* OHMYGAWD. OHMYGAWD (x 3 zillion times) IT'S SO CUTE *SQUEAK*'

PLEASE. I was in the queue and I wanted to die. I cldn't stand her higly-over-pitched voice and her perky-ness make me wanna use the knitting needle to stab straight through her throat. *I should stop being violent*

EWWWWW. *acts like bitch* Like... I was the one who started going to all this crappy places? And like... you girls *roll eyes* wanna act all darn cool *slaps the air with hand*. @#%#$^$*%*&^

NERVES BREAAAAAAAKING.

ps: I don't hate JC girls. For ur information.. I have female cousin who's in JC... plus my sweetie 8legged spiderfied TING is from CJC. I just happened to hate that particular bunch of girls.

2005-10-30T00:21:00.000-07:00

Friendster is trying VERY HARD to irritate me by indicating on my home page that I've got new messages for the past few days. It turned out that I haven't got any shit and I am fking pissed. Cause I thought Dieter might be messaging me on friendster. HA. HA HA HA.

LAUGH AT ME!

2005-10-28T13:30:00.000-07:00

hello. Regarding Clarrisa Can Knit, YES, SHE CAN.

here's to prove her ability.

She even know which button to use so as to give it a vintage touch.

SHE IS TALENTED. HAHAHAH. I AM.

2005-10-26T20:30:00.000-07:00

Went to JB today and shopped like mad. Fking cheap la!!! Discounts everywhere!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh... Bought myself 3 tops including my first every Juicy Couture top! WOOOOO. And I bought my mum 2 tops. haha. 1 of our top is identical. I thought it felt comfortable.. so i bought it for her.

And guess who I met?

BATMAN.

He said 'Hey baby. my hump my hump my hump.'

I was quite disgusted by his language... so I moved on and guess who was tapping on my shoulder?

MR RED-NINJA-TURTLE!

He said 'HEY! BLOODY HELL. WHERE'S MY PIZZA YOU BITCH'

SIGH. WHY ARE SUPERHEROS SO RUDE?

2005-10-24T23:30:00.000-07:00

OHMYFKINGGAWD. After 1 hour++ of tremendous scolding, hands slapping and tugging of hair... i can finally knit.

YES. CLARRISA CAN KNIT.

And mummy seems pleased that I can finally knit but she is seriously in doubt that I'm gonna do a good job.

We shall wait and see.

2005-10-23T23:30:00.000-07:00

Chat with Ah Cai on the mic in msn. I miss that girl silly. She's in China now... and i am so glad she's enjoying herself. :)

Things I did today: Shopped at Meidi-ya supermarket, Chinatown and flea-market.

Earrings I got at the flea market. I love handmade stuff!!

Yummy sweets that I've bought at Meidi-ya supermarket. That place is heaven!

Necklace that I've bought online recently. heh. Been wanting to show off this baby. It's custom-made, thus having my name 'clar' on the bottle. SO CUTE.

2005-10-22T14:33:00.000-07:00

Was working for Swarovski's exhibition at the trade fair. :) I totally spankingly enjoyed myself. Cause it was damn easy money and there's was a whole lot of free stuff that I've collected from different booth. HA. SLAP ME BABY.

I cannot remember what fking label is this.

No kidding. It's dunlop. I dun fkin see this label in Spore.

Adidas baby 'blingbling' booties.

Random photo of a bag I saw. I LOVE IT. Vintage from London.

BEHOLD.

VANS X SWAROVSKI!!! HEH. I WAS THE LUCKY ONE WHO TOUCHED IT AND WRAPPED IT AND KEPT IT IN IT'S BOX.

SO HOT! I WANNA DRY HUMP U!

2005-10-15T21:41:00.000-07:00

Female mag's bridal show over at Hilton Hotel. DAMN TIRED. Today, I realised that Danny actually looked like a nice daddy. He was decked in a stripped shirt tucked neatly into his black pants with belt and his gucci leather shoes. Plus his ah pek specs. NO MORE DANNY. It's PAPA DADDY. HAHAHA. I know.. i am mad.

Plus, I talked a whole load of crap with the designer of bridal wear, Blush Blush. He's a nice guy. :) NICE PEOPLE... but some models... fked up. *bleach*

OHOH. I am so excited. I shopped online like siao. I better stop myself.

2005-10-14T22:30:00.000-07:00

Went night cycling ytd. Accompanied by lishan, jrm & dennis. We cycled from East Coast to Geylang and met TianAn for supper. =\ Those guys can really eat lor. Anyway, the lazy bone got the better of us. So we went driving ard instead of cycling.

We went ard to some of the supposingly 'scary places but.... Nothing leh. Not that I want anything! HAHA. Our last stop was Jalan kaayu for prata den he drove us back to Geylang where we park our bikes. Anyway... whoever said Milo Dinosaur was nice. KNN. $2.50 for a cup of milo and milo powder. WASTE MY MONEY!

Then the 4 of us ride our bike back and TianAn drove home. Night cycling quite scary. Esp riding on the road when there are cars ard. I almost died a million times over at Geylang. On our way back to East Coast, it rained! And I really don't understand why was I the only one who was DAMN wet all over. My arms ESP!!! And we went to Mac to rot until this morning and took a cab home.

Wellllllll....... night driving also damn fking fun la. So enjoyable ya?! Can't remember when was the last time I had so much fun!

PS: My name is Clarrisa. Not Gucci. Thanks!

2005-10-11T23:04:00.000-07:00

TIRED.

I was helpin out with the fitting for the models today. Nehnehporks. Male model F is like a clown in his spiderman boxers which MR DANNY insisted that F to take off his boxers so he can see the big 'spider' in there. Man... soft porn la. F is ala Mr Pornstart.

I love jobs like this. Flexable timing, fun and easy money. WOOO BABY.

Anyway, I sewed a few bags. Prolly post up a few pics. And Xuanxin ordered the laced patchwork stuff from me... so I better whip it up sooooon.

2005-10-07T14:50:00.000-07:00

I am super duper broke but I want bags. Shit. Now.. I've got to sew my own bag since I want it and I'm too broke to buy one.

It's okie. I am inspired enough to start sewing my bags. It's okie. REALLY.

SHIT HAPPENS.

2005-10-06T15:25:00.000-07:00

I went shopping with Lirong and tues and just to let you know.. I heart lirong ALOT.

Plus... Club at black ytd. I saw SOOO MANY PPL THAT I KNOW. KNOW as in I've seen them ard b4 and often enough to allow me to remember how they look like. Anyway... Sum Xueling puked. 2nd time seeing her puke. Quite funny. And I realised that it's quite difficult to pee if someone is looking at you so.. don't look.

Anyway... I love huimin, lishan, lirong, xueling and my baobeis and those i never mention. YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU.

2005-10-05T13:40:00.000-07:00

So... On tuesday, I went shopping and I decided to get myself broke.

I bought this...(which is kinda dark and u can't see)

a purple high collar top! I like!

Then I went on with this....

orange kintted top with pompom balls at the bottom hemming.

But I still can't resist the idea of buying more shoes! So i bought...

THIS PURPLE PLASTIC POINTED SHOES! IT LOOKS LIKE BARBIE'S SHOE AND IT HAS BUBBLE GUM SCENT!

Did i just say something? PURPLE IS THE NEW GOLD!

2005-10-03T11:42:00.000-07:00

Cheap thrills in the neighbourhood.

I bought a $2 vintage vinyl purse with that clasp thingy.

Then it was a $3 coduroy floral duffle bag.

And next comes a QUILTED POLLYPOCKET. I swear this is the BESTEST buy since the new Polly playset is fking lame and their toys are huge like ass. I love old school shithead.

(doesn't it resembles Chanel's quilted purse? SO HOT!)

I LOVE OLDSCHOOL POLLYPOCKET.

2005-10-02T01:02:00.000-07:00

I am such a furball. Okie. I am not a furball. I am a crybaby. I cry at everything. I cry while watching shows or reading books. I cried like hell when my grandma passed away and still cry when I tink of her. Sometimes, I cry at night and blame it for being too lonely. I cried when my lecturer decided to plonk a D+ onto my project that I stayed up to do. I cried when ex-boyfriend left me and gees, I cried as though my whole life depended on him.

I just can't help but to cry. I AM A WHIMP.

They say women's tears are precious.

I say, broken hearts are the most precious thing that you can find in a woman.

2005-09-30T23:37:00.000-07:00

Poor legs. So tired from all the dancing on Weds & Thurs. *pats*

Saw Shan at the 987fm flaunt party. He's so fking gorgeous and I just wanna grab him and kiss him thanks to that sexy mole that lies on top of his upper lips. WOOTS.

Thanks to lirong's fren(i suspect it's the guy) who bought us drinks.

POOR LEGGIES.

2005-09-29T13:32:00.000-07:00

YEY! Package arrived!

Woooo. Important documents! But really... it's just coupons.

WOOOOOOO! More coupons and advertisment of other online websites.

OHMYGOODIES. BUTTONS MY LOVE!

more shopping online! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.

2005-09-29T05:00:00.000-07:00

Just finish bathing! Today was goddamn shiok. Club momo sucks bad so we club hop to Chinablack. WOOTS. Had a wild time with Xueling! Love clubbing with that stupid woman and the both of us were like doing dirtyyyyy dancing. HAHAH. I wanna laugh a thousand years. Everyone in our grp left and only xueling and I were doing the boogie woogie....

OHHHHH... i love clubbing with her.

More more more!

2005-09-27T22:45:00.000-07:00

WA LAO. I don't mean to blog AGAIN. But I cannot believe he is with her?! WTH?!

Mr Decent & Miss Wild?! Not exactly what I wanna see!

OH HELL. I am prejudice against girls who are skinner than me. So let's see... oh! I am sorry to hate all the girls out there and I am so fking sorry to be bias against you cause IT'S DISGUSTING TO IMAGINE THE BOTH OF YOU FKING?! -_-'''''''''

PUI! THAT'S DOWNRIGHT DISGUSTING!

2005-09-27T20:25:00.000-07:00

oh oh.

Had a fun day with Joy! We went cycling over at Pasir Ris Park in the morning & went to play at the FAB playgrd. DAMN FKING FUN. I love the playgrd. Cycling was fun too! Peddle peddle peddle until our legs were goddamn wobbly.

Then we went for lunch. VEGETARIAN PASTA. Damn nice. More of it next time.

Waited for winnie at Mac. Joy and I had our nails done while waiting. WOOO. Nail polish are fun!

And Winnie joined us for movie - The Longest Yard. (SORRY THAT I AM SO SLOW) But that movie was fking fab! Goddamn funny and man! I LOVE NELLY! okie. and adam sandler too! And those huge macho HUGE HUGE HUGE man.

IT'S SO GOOD TO BE YOUNG & CAREFREE.

2005-09-27T01:01:00.000-07:00

I can't wait to club on weds & thurs!

&

I am meeting my girls on friday for shopping spreed!

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-09-25T01:20:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, I secretly wonder if life in 10 years time would still be as fun as it was back then.

I sorta miss those time when you kinda have a crush on a guy and how you would scribble his name all over your textbook or whatever surface that is reachable to you. And you foolishly smile to yourself as you try to picture his face in the dark.

Or in 10 years time, I would be a teary & tired lady sitting in the dark, foolishly smiling to herself as she picture her life as it was 10 years back then?

Questions like that makes you wonder. Wonder wonder wonder and wonder....

2005-09-22T14:39:00.000-07:00

Label would be know as 'I felt it'.

I might or might not change. So wait up for more news update. And I would start a blog for the label too. WAIT UP PEOPLE.

2005-09-22T00:10:00.000-07:00

QUEUE UP BOYS!

I did a test and it says I am a passionate kisser.

Apart from that, I've been sewing for the whole day. And I went for my cousin's wedding dinner. OHMYGAWD la. I dunno to feel old cause he's only 23 (and MARRIED?!) or feel like some kid attending another kid's wedding.

And guess what? I have decided that I don't want a wedding dinner.

2005-09-21T00:55:00.000-07:00

I am quite sincere in starting up my own label selling hand-mades accessories. Quite inspired too! So, don't disturb me cause my label is still in the making ya? I need to give birth to more ideas. And hopefully, at least 1 interview I had today would not FLOP cause I need money to buy all this materials.

I am still pregnant with my label.

In the mean time, wait like a good girl/boy.

I will update.

Sooon.

2005-09-17T15:42:00.000-07:00

Be a sweetheart and give me back my voice. PLEASE.

2005-09-15T13:45:00.000-07:00

YEY! Lirong got me a I love NY badge! MUACKS! Thanks!

Ladies night at chinablack. Shiok. Drink like fuck and don't even need to pay money. Plus the alcohol taste a lot better than the other night. SO MANY PEOPLE YOU KNOW. Lirong, Winnie, Jo, Xueling, Vanessa, Michelle, Xinyi and 2 of Xinyi's friend plus me over at black. WA LAO.

Me and Xueling cldn't stand it, so we went over to Zouk. DAMN BLOODY CROWDED. Luckily, we managed to cut queue cause Xueling saw her friend. So fucking crowded la! Zouk should have announced that they are gonna renovate mah! =\ Mambo night was damn funny. You see all the guys so good looking but when they dance... WAHAHAHAHA. You just wish you can hug your stomach and lie on the floor to laugh.

Anyway... last few hours at Phuture was damn fun. I am soooo looking forward to the opening of the new phuture. I wish for more toilets, bigger space in phuture and lastly, ICE WATER PLEASE. Anyway.... Danced like siao over at Phuture. Sawwww soooo many people! =\

And and and....... I LEFT MY VOICE AT THE DANCEFLOOR. and now, i can't even squeek! HELP!

2005-09-13T13:50:00.000-07:00

Weds night - no more playing double. We gonna do the threesome thing!!

I so hate to talk nowadays. I cannot find someone who would talk to me about PROPER things. Seriously, damn irritating. It's always about them, their lives, my lives, their problems and me screaming BROKE. WHAT'S NEW PEOPLE WHAT'S NEW? And then when I stop talking, they think I have a problem.

I need more 'me' time & a job. I like to talk to strangers. At least they don't think that I'm weird if I suddenly stop talking to them.

2005-09-12T14:06:00.000-07:00

Wed's zouk is on. This time (fkin pathetic) only xueling & me.

Our excuse: zouk's goin on a revamp real soon.

Fact: we just wanna make merry.

Excitement of the day: I am gonna clean up my room!!! SOON. Okie. NOW.

BEYBYEYbyebyeybeybeBYeYBeYBeybyeBYeBYeBYE!

2005-09-10T07:20:00.000-07:00

Damn.. i just got home. I swear I cannot take all this shiet. After 2 nights of clubbin (thur & fri) and my knees are already coming apart.

Thurs night was hot. Went over to dbl O. The drinks are cheap and they are strong enough to get me high. Hit the dancefloor like no fkers business. Then they had some performances and it was in malay. Wan lan.. not that i want to complaint but I really didn understand a single thing but their music were kinda groovy. Took pictures! *GRIN* Plus this stupid black guy grab my arm and I had to shake it off and stare at him. Such nerves! Lirong came to stay over too! Quite fun.

Fri night.... went to chinablack but this time.. with xueling, elv and ah cai. SUPER SUPER HOT.
I sweat like shiet and I saw an ex pri sch classmate. He can actually tell that it was me when it's so dark and I wasn't even paying attention to anyone. Plus he had to tell me who he is and quite happy to know that he's back from aussie and now in the army... WELL!!! I'll get to see u around then. So we danced on the platform cause like I've said, it was fking warm on the dancefloor and the platform is the only place where u can literally 'feel' the aircon. *ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh* shiok.

How how? Weds mambo night still on?! I can't wait to get my ass in phuture la! =\
Clubbing is so fun if you do people watching while you dance. HEH.

2005-09-04T23:40:00.000-07:00

Shit. I need money. I need to do something about my spending habits. Here am I talking about wanting MORE money and there is my dad talking about getting a new car. Or maybe Bush should give me some of his money since he's not going to do anythin useful with that amount of cold hard cash.

And I swear there shld be some charity drive set up by some 'kind' soul for the Hurricane shiet.

WHY? What for donating to all these charity drives? Give me the money. And I'll give u something in return. Maybe you can pay for my shopping expenses and I'll shop with u! Or pay for my drinks and i'll club with u. JUST SHOW ME THE GODDAMN MONEY!

I've got the gimme-a-goddamn-high-paying-job syndrome. DAMN.

I SAID GIVE ME THE MONEY ALREADYYYYYYYYYY.

2005-09-03T15:43:00.000-07:00

Last night was damn shiok. Went to Rouge for Long island ice tea. Left after finishing our drink. Damn disgusting. So we headed for Club Momo and the crowd really cannot make it. So we left for Zouk. All hail Lirog's boss. HEH. SO FUNNNEH. I like it at zouk. But I was like a fking light stick. Anyway.. drank like siao. We had a jug of ribena vodka, vodka lemon and urm.. oh yes. purple coke. Drink so much but pee soooo little.

Phuture was damn crowded la. Kana touch like siao. Poor us.. so packed. We can only vibrate within the tiny area. So we went to sit down la. And this dude with dreadlocks offered me his ribena vodka. FUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNEH. So many funny stuff. So fun to club with them. heh. can't wait can't wait.

Lesson learnt : in order to not look like a light stick, dun wear white from top to toe when u're visiting zouk.

2005-09-02T16:00:00.000-07:00

I hereby announce, ALL SUBMISSIONS CLEARED!

2005-08-31T23:03:00.000-07:00

SUPER DUPER HIGH ON COFFEE. OOOHHHH.

But why am i feeling so fking warm!!

=\

2005-08-31T10:28:00.000-07:00

My encounter with caffeine(KOPI).

I didn know that drinking KOPI gets you high and kicking all night. Anyway, it got me high. Since ytd I woke up at 7.40am... I am SUPPOSED to feel tired and yes I did...but I continued to do my stuff in school from 9.30am all the way to 10.40pm. And I continued at home from 12am to 6am in the morning! My eyes kinda stings now but I feel quite energetic!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. I am gonna get kopi later. It's so much better than having an orgasm. Not that I really know how it feels but WHO CARES! OH OH. I feel like the bunny from energizer!! *HOP HOP HOP*

2005-08-31T00:20:00.000-07:00

Reached home about half an hour ago.. Just had my nice warm bath.

Left school around 10.40pm.

Bus with jiaxin is pure madness. We were trying to blabber in cantonese all the way. It was quite irritating.

And i better stop typing like this.

It feels like another report.

NO SLEEP TONIGHT YEY YEY.

2005-08-30T22:00:00.000-07:00

Heh. It's 10pm and I am still in school.

and i dun understand why aren't you replying me.

should i start addressing you as Mr Stranger?

2005-08-28T11:18:00.000-07:00

I swear I broke into tears last night. I am fking pissed by this stupid size specification shiet. And my fking grp mate tot that it was done. STUPID BLOODY ASS. Don't be dumb can? EVEN YOUR 20 measurement were all fking wrong. CAN U FKING TELL ME HOW AM I GONNA COVERT INTO US MISSY SIZE? @#$^$&%^*%^&^#^%$%&*#%^#*

And BLOODY KEVIN. HAVEN'T EVEN TOUCH ON HIS PRODUCTION DRAWING. DUDE. I'VE GOT NO TIME TO WAIT FOR YOU. I AM NOT GOING TO FAIL THIS SUBJECT BECAUSE OF SUCH PEOPLE LIKE THE TWO OF YOU. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.

Perhaps Stella have done more... bUT PLEASE, if you are gonna be an apparel designer... DON'T TELL ME YOU CANNNOT TELL WHICH FABRIC IS WOVEN AND WHICH IS KNITTED? AND YOU GOT THE CHEEK TO ASK ME WHY SHIRT HAVE TO USE WOVEN?! ARE YOU KIDDING ME? HAVE YOU SEEN JERSEY MATERIAL AKA YOUR NORMAL TEESHIRT MATERIAL USED FOR MAKING A FORMAL SHIRT?

PLEASE PEOPLE. The next time your promised your group mate about doing something... REALLY DO IT. DON'T MAKE OTHER PEOPLE DO YOUR ROLE FOR YOU. NOT PAISAE ONE MEH?!

it's not even because i am kan jiong or wadever shiet. I promised others what i will do and i carried it out. You don't make promises for nothing. CHAO CHEEKEN. I HATE ALL OF YOU.

2005-08-27T22:07:00.000-07:00

Charis tried to knock sense into me and well... I still like the idea of the cliche statement that you made.

I have turned into a green eye monster. Don't fking come near me. I hate anything that has a dick. BYEBYEBYEBYEBYEYBBYEY

You sing a sad song just to turn it around..because you had a bad day.

2005-08-26T23:42:00.000-07:00

delete me. it seems quite pointless in seeing my name there.

morning madness with joy. soup and songs. with my head in my hands, I start to cry... Then we both realised that we cldn't sing Don't Speak since most of the lyrics are what we cannot relate too. So we skipped that song.

Afternoon rush with Charis and Winnie. Had fruits. And I saw Mr-No-Ass and Ugly-Ang-Moh in the canteen. So, they are those guys I saw at the gig. Next time, Ang-Moh.... please don't stare at me. You can start by smiling?

Night studying at Starbucks with Sis. SO FUN. She laughed so much that she started crying. It has been awhile since we last had so much fun. =\ I miss those days.

My eyes are tearing and body is aching. My head throbs like mad and my chest is damn tight. I tink i am dying.

2005-08-25T22:24:00.000-07:00

And she said 'it takes blood and guts to be this cool but I am still just a cliche'.

Shit. Have i mentioned before that I am obsessed with guys who are damn fair-skin? DID I? And those red lips plus well defined jaws. God forbbid me to see those people! I might just grab their hands and walk beside them. OHHHH!

2005-08-24T22:30:00.000-07:00

TAIHEN DESU YO! HONTO NI TAIHEN DESU YO!

2005-08-23T22:25:00.000-07:00

Funny thing is that everyone wants a piece of you. And you really think that they are treating you like their REAL friend. Think again. They are all treating you like a huge lovely rich creamy cake. CAKE.

I really detest how red bull taste. SO SWEET. But nevertheless, I drank the whole can. *crossing my fingers* and hope that it will keep me awake....*LOUD YAWN* Oooopppps!

And your friends can have you for all I care. I don't even want a teeny weeny lick of your cream. I DON'T CARE I DON'T CARE I DON'T CARE I DON'T CARE I DON'T CARE I DON'T CARE.

byebye.

2005-08-22T23:10:00.000-07:00

I want more of Tom Sturridge please!

Elvieeee! Happy 18th birthday!

PEOPLE!!! THINK WEEK 16. And by then... WOAH. HOLIDAYS which would be another boring period to pass.

Hi Mr Eugene. Your girlfriend, Ah Dog, told me that you want to know who is Mr Mysterious in my blog right?! U can call me at 9******2 and clarify this matter. Thanks. HAHAHAHA.

Oh. Did i tell you that I got damn high today? I really dunno why. Too little rest. TIRED.

And I am so fking random... I must have been an Ipod Shuffle in my previous life.

BYE.

2005-08-21T18:40:00.000-07:00

Latest obsession: Tom Sturridge & Nicole Richie.

Kill me. I am in love with Nicole Richie and Tom Sturridge. They both have got such nice defined jaws! I tink for a guy, well defined jaws and lovely smile PLUS nice hair is damn fking impt. If your smile sucks... I guess it's goodbye? I don't fking care if a guy looks good or not as long as he has got great smile and teeth! Guys with beautiful smile and nice jaws can queue up here! THANKS. HAHAHAHA.

As for nicole richie, i kinda like her skinny frame now. And she is like ALOT LESS bitchy in the way she dress and she got rid of the whole mini skirt thing for GOOD. Which I like it. Not that i am against woman with alil more meat like Liv Tyler or some EXTRA more meat like myself... I am still so obsessed with Nicole Richie. Heh...i like the idea that she looks like a drug addict.

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. TOM STURRIDGE.

2005-08-20T12:11:00.000-07:00

Werid manner to start off the morning. Fell asleep darn early last night and didn even touch any of my proj when I jolly well know that I've got at least 4 spare hours. I was pratically stoning in my living room, lying on the couch. At 11+ I decided to go to bed thanks to my brother who switched on my air con and make my room so fking shiok that all I wanna do is to hide underneath my blankie. And I set alarm for 5am but I woke up at 10am?! KNN. I hate myself.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

PLEASE. Let me pass my AMP. PLEASEEEEEEEEE!

2005-08-19T22:15:00.000-07:00

And I thought you were different.

2005-08-18T22:30:00.000-07:00

Been so long since I last went town. Hmm... I tink the last time I visited town was about 3 weeks ago? So pathetic. Most of the time, I would be at Bugis or cityhall area to do some stuff for school. Finally.. shopping at topshop and fareast. Bought an adidas wallet from topshop... shiokness. Next, stripped-silk-screened teeshirt from fareast with discount. DOUBLE shiokness. Okie. That's all the shiokness I've got/enjoyed in a day.

Tonight is battle time. AGAIN.

2005-08-17T23:05:00.000-07:00

People, I don't come online to make merry. I come online to do my work. When I am on Busy mode, I GOTTA BE BUSY RIGHT? Stop asking me this and that and this and that and this and that AND THIS AND THAT AND THIS AND THAT! SHUT UP ALREADY.

And I am really sorry that I got so pissed at everyone. I mean I don't understand why is everyone asking me how to do this how to do that. My work is pilled up to my bangs and I am really at times too frustrated to answer any of the questions. Especially... 'How to do blahblah report ah?' LIKE THAT DO LA. WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY HOW? ON THE COMPUTER AND FKING DO UR RESEARCH AND TYPE THEM OUT IN A REPORT FORMAT? HAPPY?

Sorry. i am in a SUPER SUPER PISSY MOOD and I can literally hear my bed calling for me.

It's gonna be an endless night.......

2005-08-17T00:35:00.000-07:00

The sun will set despite your fears..

The rain will fall it'll mist your face.....

I am really pissed with Jacobs. Not particularly his fault that I've got THAT group but wadever. I am just pissed with everything now. I am pissed with this whole 'fast system' and shit. Why are we learning what we are learning? Why are we forced to take subjects that we don't even want to. Where's the soooooo called 'freedom' and where is the speakers' corner? Sign me up for the speakers' corner. CCB. I want to rant. I think I better go find Mishal. Prolly the only guy/person who wld listen me rant about politics, history, religion and even racial discrimination. FUN. FUN FUN FUN.

2005-08-16T11:05:00.000-07:00

Whatever stranger.

It feels like we are on a bus ride.

Your sincere smile ended with a hostile goodbye.

The bus screech.

And there goes the shadow of your back.

byebye.

2005-08-15T21:10:00.000-07:00

THIS IS MY BLOG AND I FUCKING BLOG ABOUT WHAT I WANT TO. AND IT'S ABOUT YOU AND THOSE CHEEBONGS IN SCHOOL.

let's start with cheebongs. Bitch XXX and Bitch E's GF. Both of u can fking hug each other and then stuff laser injet cartridges down each other throat until both of you kick the bucket. And Bitch E's GF can go dig Bitch XXX eyes so that she will be deprived of 'style-checking' everyone else. Bitch XXX, the only style check you need to conduct is on yourself. The way you walk with your hands swinging and you mouth all crumpled in the side makes everyone wanna laugh at you. Stupid ahsoh. If brands make people looks better, sorry, it just doesn't make u look any less cheaper. Eat your fking heart out.

Next, dearest Bitch E's gf. I am happy that you've got such a small face. OH, paradon me for actually assuming that you were a walking 1cent coin when I first see u in school. And my my my... you sure have an attitude. But let me tell you sth, it pretty dangerous when you start scrunching your face and knitting your eyebrows together. Cause someone might just take out a 50cent coin and whack your stupid 1cent - worthless face. And your tall lanky body is screaming injustice to your non-existance breast. Think wonder-bra. It helps. Oh, btw...your all tied up hair doesn't make your face looks any longer ya? :)

Next time, you girls wanna play bitch with me.. i play with you double.

And i am too angry now to talk about you. BYE.

2005-08-13T23:21:00.000-07:00

i need to lie in bed.

=

2005-08-12T15:45:00.000-07:00

you know how it feels when u get this crumpy feeling in the middle of ur chest. When you know your crush has a crush on somebody else and you get this lously crumpy achy feeling u get in the middle of ur chest. The feeling makes you feel so bad that all you want to do is go home and sleep your life away or just read a book in bed. Either way... it just makes you wanna stay in bed and far far away from all this. =\

and you tot rushing submissions are vexing enough.

so much for facing the reality
so much for living up for tml
so much for staying truthful to youself

IRRITATING PRICK

2005-08-11T10:14:00.000-07:00

WTS?!

2005-08-10T09:35:00.000-07:00

Mishal was Mr 1001 to tell me that he's darn busy and wld not be avilable to accompany me.
But luckily I found Miss 1002 to accompany! HOORAY!

Anyway, I wished I have an elder brother or sth. I'll prolly throw my temper ard and make him accompany me. Or maybe an elder sissis too!

Whatever the shit is.

2005-08-08T22:20:00.000-07:00

Seriously, when was the last time a person wished u happy 9th month? Or maybe it didn't even last that long at all.. woman... cherish it okay? I love u anyways. U tai ni dum gurl! HAHAHAHA.

What does it feels like to have ur mind occupied by someone's face and yet that person doesn't feel the same way? funny. It happening to me but the funny thing is i dunno how should i feel. Sad, happy, hurt, dumb, irritated... Why am i so weird. Why are our feelings so mixed. Can't we feel sth pure when we're doing sth?

all this is happening so fast. whoever can tell me what's goin to happen next?

2005-08-07T21:57:00.000-07:00

updates. CCN day was a blast except for some idiotic fking jackass who came over just to make a big fuss out of the chicks. HEY, WE TREATED THEM GREAT ALRIGHT? Fking losers who need attentions, esp that guy with green nails. Hey, guess what? Dude, your green nails scream CLICHE. LOSER.

And JB trip was fkin fab.Well, I was busy making notes anyway. I feel so inspired and motivated after hearing her life story. I was so touched by what she had said. 'You want it, then go all the way for it. You can make it.' Well, though it was directed to me only, i still feel it.

And after Jb trip, we went to this fking stupid japanese restaurant at century square basement. CCB. All of us got into an argument. Waiter said he was new and didn know what was the starter. WTF? Sucha lame excuse. And he made the wrong orders and we realised it after finish eating all the food. And they gave us a bill that wasn't even the actual one? WTCCB? They expect us to calculate the amount? And they played HORRIBLE songs that were absolutely PASSE. WTS! I am never going back...esp when their waiter and waitresses are not attentive at all! KNN. fking waste my 20 dollars on a not-even-above-average meal.

Plans for this coming week:

Monday - Library with Charis den meet KK.
Tuesday - Rushing History Of Costume.
Weds - Bras Brasah to print my stuff and prepare for PComD and AdCad
Thursday - Lighting stuff to do done.
Friday - History of Costume's submission and neighbourhood shoppin with Joy.
Sat - Allow me to sleep. Then rush for my AMP's report and group wrk.
Sun - Sleep time. And then shopping cum gig with Joy.

I AM SO BUSY. *even larger fonts* TIRED TOO!

2005-08-03T23:33:00.000-07:00

Recently, I've been grumbling about nothing but not having enough sleep. The fact is that I did sleep but why the shit am I feeling so tired. Even after 7hrs of sleep, I still feel like a walking zombie. My eyes are hardly opening and the eyebags transform themselves into bigger masses under my eye. Every inch of my body ache like nobody's business and my pilled-up-to-the-sky assignments are screaming for me to touch them.

I am only one person. I can't divert my attention onto so many things at once. Why the shit is CCN day still going on? I am so tired. I need to hibernate. When will I ever get this chance? And even on this fking sat after my stupid CCN day shit, I am supposed to wake up at 6.45am to school and go on some factory visit trip. What the ccb.

I am pratically flaring up at any possible irritations that irritate me. But with grace, I smile at those irritants and secretly wished that god will fk their ccb brain. Because of asses like you people, i snap too often.

2005-08-03T01:05:00.000-07:00

Good morning people. It's 1 am now and i am currently sitting in front of Winnie's computer stoning away due to the fact that i over in-haled the glue gun smelly ass.

I am suffering from a severe shoulder ache and thigh ache and i dunno why! But all...i know is....that...i really need to sleep. I need to sleep. Are designers born to withstand all those sleep-less nights and these heavy eyebags? God. I really need to sleep!

2005-08-01T22:42:00.000-07:00

Good bye dearest bed. Good bye beauty sleep.

2005-07-30T21:12:00.000-07:00

It's times like this when insecurity gets the better of you/me. When you feel like your fking skin is an oily fryin pan. When you feel like you need to wear something darker than black to hide that hideous figure of yours. When you feel that even your toe nails are ugly. When you get aigitated by even the slightest sound heard. When you feel like you just wanna puke everything but you can't. When you feel like smoking a stick but you haven't got one. When you feel like having some time to read and you realise that you haven't even got enough time to complete your work. (okay, the last 2 pts have got nothin to do with insecurity. I was simply ranting.)

And the list goes on. Nothing makes me happy.

I am feeling so fking shitty. So dumpy in my fold-up jeans, my black tshirt and my messy hair. I want to sit with my legs up on the chair and I am gonna think about you all day long while you think about her 24/7. I may be stupid to do that, but you are not any smarter. We are just walking against the obvious.

I am so gonna read my new book tittle THE PACT. 2 teenagers and 1 suicide pact. But why only the girl is dead? I hope that guy didn chicken out. I wished he had died together with that her. A bullet each. Blowing off each other's head. OH. I HATE the way they call him in the book. Chris. I HATE CHRIS. I FUCKING HATE IT.

I am so fking jealous. I have no one who wants to die with me. Guess I am prolly to hideous to be seen with at anywhere-even hell. I have been so unkind to those who had went out with me. I have been so mean to scare those who meet me for the first and ever time. I shld have worn a paper bag over my fked up face and wrapped myself in a giantic piece of black cloth and paste some pretty face over the bag. Then I'll go swap body with some aneroxic.

It's cute to be tiny. Isn't it? It's easy to say that OH I AM SO FAT AND UGLY when obviously they are as hell cute as a button and looked as if they walked out of FHM. HA. Who are they to say 'Why am I not getting those cutes lad'? When dicks stand and knees wobbled as they shashay against the crowd. HAHA.

I am so funny.

2005-07-28T16:01:00.000-07:00

Die. I wanna die la. I am having a major headache. How can 4 hours of sleep compensate to your 20 hrs of slogging and hardwork. TELL ME LA. HOW TO COMPENSATE MY 20 OVER HOURS OF SLOGGING. TELL ME.

I can so sick. I tink i am so gonna puke now. NOW!

2005-07-28T02:28:00.000-07:00

Eat your heart out. I am still chiong-ing my lighting. Time is passing soooooooo quickly! OHMAN. I wonder if i am time to take a nap after completing it and den rush to school by 9. And what the shit? 2.23am already. How the fk is that possible. OH GOD. GIVE ME THE POWER TO STAY ALERT AND AWAKE. My eyes are half of its original size which is not gonna exists SOON.

eat ur heart out eat ur heart out eat ur heart out eat ur heart out

29 hrs more to lighting submission.

i am so gonna skip pcomd tml. NO. later.

2005-07-26T21:18:00.000-07:00

Things to do:

-Self intro in Japanese
-Meeting up with AMP group
-Research for companies
-Print stuff for Lighting
-Lighting report
-Town for photo shoot
-Powerpt presentation
-Research for History of costume
-sew more egg brooche
-VM stuff
-Capsules merchandises

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. All to be done by this week! AHHH! Can someone stab me?

2005-07-24T23:11:00.000-07:00

I feel so childish. Why the hell did I even feel sad? Here I am, thinking about someone and that someone is actually thinking about somebody else! Why am I so fking childish? I have got loads of stuff for me to fret over. And I realised that you shouldn't have belonged in any of my ranking.

My grandma should go first. Why? Cause she has got stupid fking cancer. (ps i hate cancer) And she is so weak she might leave me anytime. Why should I be sad because of you?

My stupid school projects are piled so high, I can hardly see what's in front of me. Why should I be sad beacuse of you?

Charis is sick. I shld be worried for her. Not you.

My friends well-being. I knew them ever since I worn practice bra or even BRALESS. Why did i bother so much about you?

yes. these reasons are enough. i won't see u in my dreams tonight. bye.

2005-07-24T11:11:00.000-07:00

HEIL MY FUHRER.

Went to watch Downfall ytd. It's a DARN NICE movie. About the downfall of Germany under Adolf Hitler. It was in German but i tell you... i cried like fuck. I cried the shit out of me. I was sooooo pissed at those who betrayed Hitler. If I was Hitler at that time, I wldn't have bothered to yell so much. I will PERSONALLY shoot that bloody fucker to death. YES. DEATH.

In war, there's no compassion. That's why the war started in the first place. I mean the movie had totally wowed me somehow. You should see how a mother, wife of the Chancellor refused to let her kids grow up in a country without national socialist. She killed them all. Then her husband killed her and he commited suicide. Funny thing is that they are so much like Japanese Samurai. They preferred 'harakiri' than to surrender to their enemy.

Russia also damn $%$^%&. CCB. And among them all, the woman who worked for Hitler was the woman that I truly salute to. She was so brave. She lived on. She walked past the Russian soldiers. SHE LIVED ON. At the end of the movie, she appeared on screen, talking about her past. I so wanna cry la. Okie. i did. I cried like shit. I cried when they kill others, i cried when hitler killed himself, i cried when i saw that they left all the old people in the hospital, i cried when i saw dead bodies stacking on top of each other. I cried like shit.

And now... i tink i am gonna cry again. because of... _______________. Go fill in the blanks. BYE.

2005-07-21T22:18:00.000-07:00

AVENGED SEVENFOLD LYRICS

"I Won't See You Tonight Part 1"

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight

Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and loved

Building up inside of me
A place so dark, so cold,
I had to set me free
Don't mourn for me,
You're not the one to place the blame
As bottles call my name
I won't see you tonight

Sorrow sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and most of all I loved
But I can't see myself that way
Please don't forget me or cry while I'm away
Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
But I've made the change,I
won't see you tonight

So far away, I'm gone.
Please don't follow me tonight
And while I'm gone everything will be alright

No more breathe inside
Essence left my heart tonight

i would be selfish to not to show you this. beautiful song.

2005-07-20T21:06:00.000-07:00

Are you gone and onto someone new?
I needed somewhere to hang my head
Without your noose
You gave me something that I didn't have
But had no use
I was too weak to give in
Too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again
But I break loose
My head is giving me life or death
But I can't chooseI swear
I'll never give in I refuse

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must
Confess

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...Oh...Oh...Oh...Oh...

Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
The life, the love
You die to heal
The hope that starts
The broken hearts
You trust, you must
Confess

hi. i have another confession my friend, i'm no fool. Has she taken away the best of you? She devoured your heart didn't she? You break down at the though of her. Didn't you? Who's there to mend your oh-so broken soul. gees..

OUH. On the lighter side of life, dearest sistar! SHE HAS A BOYFRIEND LA. *shy* I blushed like mad when I heard that from her. SO CUTE. *grin* I feel so happy for her!! So much happier than the entire of my 18 yrs of life. Okie. Not exactly the whole of the 18 yrs but I hope you know... she can grow old with someone she really likes and I tink he's really sweet to her. You shld see her smile la. So drowned in love ah!

2005-07-18T22:40:00.000-07:00

CHEEBYE. I blogged a whole lot of shiet and it was gone. It's about this BITCH i saw in the printing lab. KNN. If you wanna print stuff, come earlier next time. Don't fking act like a diva in front of me and ask me how long I waited and stuff. HELLO? If you are rushing for your submission, SO AM I. Go fuck your stupid thumbdrive while waiting for your turn la. Chaonehneh. And she got the cheek to act friendly! Don't think I dunno what's up your sleeves. You are just trying to make things work faster., which i believe is a total waste of ur fking time but it's alright. you've got plenty to spare. IF I FUCKING KNOW HOW LONG IT'S GONNA TAKE, I WLD HAVE GONE OUT TO GET A DRINK THEN GO BACK AND COLLECT MY PRINTED SHEETS. STUPID. If I am not wrong, she's a year2 from IAD. TSK. STUPID BITCH LA. I was so pissed, I cancelled job and went out to have a chat with anngee. TSK. that bitch. Wanted to take that huge ink cartridge and shove it up her ass and slap her with the table.

I hate this la. This emotional roller coaster ride. Why do i have to go through it AGAIN and AGAIN. So sick of all this. I am so tired la. Why can't I just bloody hell sort out my feelings into those nice Ikea boxes and bring them out. Why are they always dumped inside me. All jumbered and mixed up. I hate it. I hate sorting things out. WHY. I don't want to feel happy, sad, lonely, confused and tired at the same time. ONE AT A TIME. PLEASE. TAKE TURNS.

our mind, a whirlpool.
yes, i said our mind.
yours and mine.

2005-07-17T01:47:00.000-07:00

I am feeling DAMN uneasy right now. There's this little pony ramping inside me and it's suddenly growing into a huge black stallion. HELP.

Was at over at baybeats to catch Brand New Sunset from thailand and Brandtson but sorry la Brandtson. I was too tired and feeling wayyy to uneasy already. Stoned at the seats in the hall of esplanade. *oh no. horsey is ramping AGAIN* Anyway, shopping sucked. I bought NOTHING.

Ouh, I saw fireworks. It was damn beautiful. Was walking half-way thru almost reaching the stages when I actually stop and watched. Everyone did that anyway and couples had hugs.

My point is, beauty never last. Beauty makes people superficial. Beauty is the end of everything. Just when you thought life was so beautiful, BAM. You get hit by some fireballs spitting acts that happens only once every 100 yrs or something. HA. And you thought nature was beautiful. Beauty is dangerous. Just when you think you know what beauty is, it changes its form into a wicked and dangerous icon. No matter how many botox you get, you'll still be that old ugly self.

And I really don't understand why some people just gotta be THAT superficial. I feel sick at the though of them. *stallion ramping even HARDER*